性格

俗语说一种米养百种人。好像我这种性格的，最快被社会淘汰。原因无它，就是我做的决定，都太慢了。年前说想买车，现在都年尾了，一点动静都还没。可能算是贪心吧，想以最优惠的价格，买最好，经济能力能负担的车。

以我难做决定的性格，开始都已经选好了，只是后来在论坛看到越来越无利的新闻，心都冷了。现在朋友要买车，定金都付了，而我，还在想东西想西。

人生不过是如此，现今的社会，好的东西不会等你。但有时候也需要等，因为更好的可能会出现。可无论如何，有时还真的需要豁出去呐！

I'll be back!

原来已经有好长时候无返过来，都几怀念曾经都算勤力的日子。有些事情，不是面子书或微博系可以抒发得到。人地会以为你对号入座，无端端嬲亲就无谓。最近得到启发，希望我都会勤力㝍好的文章，给人鼓励吧！

每人的心里都住了个小孩

成长的过程是相当痛苦的。要面对残酷的现实，也要承受长大的压力。其实成长并不可怕，只是很多人不能够坦然的面对压力。而造成自己活得痛苦。

Bye Bye 2010 and Hello 2011!

It's like it has been decades since I updated my blog since last month. I'm just too lazy to write cos no one will read it anyway. It's just a simple record of what I had done and been doing.


2010 has been a fruitful year for my gadgets! Got myself a new computer, PSP and GPS on February, changed China brand GPS to Garmin, bought SE Vivaz on June, Ipod touch on October and finally changed phone again for SE W995 on December. A lot of purchasing had been done and I think is enough for this year. =)


I have to stop spending now cos next year is another type of money spending - travelling!! I'm not a traveller, but  there will be 2 plans for travelling overseas. April will be going to Guangzhou and hopefully September to Taiwan. So I need to stop spending starting from NOW!!! Hopefully can go Singapore with Pinky or Thailand or Hong Kong.


All my plans for 2010 had failed. The plan to quit my job, to do business had been passed. Though I hope i can do it next year, but I don't really have high hopes on it. But for the business, I hope can start after April. If the financial is stable, I might able to get another job for part time to do editing. But I might be missing Pinky next year, cos most probably she will be going to Taiwan to further her studies. All the best for her.


But as for me, hope dreams might come true with more efforts. Looking forward for next year. 2011 here I come!

In Christ Alone

This song was sung last Sunday durint the end of the sermon. I like this hymn. It does reminds me that in every trouble you are facing, you can rely on Him and Him alone.

In Christ alone, my hope is found!

我和你 You and Me (Official 2008 Beijing Olympics Theme Song)

It has been 2 years after the Olympics games. You may wonder why till now only I will want to write about this.


I shed  tears whenever I'm listening to this song. Heard it during the opening of the long waiting once in a 4 years game. Liu Huan's voice really best suit the song, though don't really understands the Sarah Brightman's part at first. Search the lyrics and found the music video through the official Olympic website.


The song did touch my heart. Beautiful music with great meaning, but how many of us can achieve that? Topic of racism and corruption had been hot topic these few months. It's there all the while until recently it has been trigger again by a headmistress of asking Chinese to go back to China if you don't respect other races and cultures.


It seems easy to say that, but is it easy for Malaysian Chinese to go back China? Even if we are travelling to China, we still need a Visa to go in, because to them we are Malaysians!!! Not just yellow skins with a title called Chinese!


The lyrics mention we are from One World and We Are Family... We can hardly achieve to this level. But with God, everything is possible. And I'm sure we can achieve it in heaven one day, where all are equal and same status regardless of whatever identity you had in this earth.


我 We - The Lord and 你You - Us.  :)  We are family!

放手吧！

如果你还放不下某个人... 请看看... (转载自面子书)


傻孩子，到现在还放不下对方吗

傻孩子，到现在还想着对方的一点一滴吗，，，


傻孩子，有些人、有些事、我们可能偏偏放不下，，，


傻孩子，我来给你做个试验：


你拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。


你烫到手的时候是马上松手了吗？


知道我想说什么了吗？


这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。




傻孩子．


忘了吧．所有你留恋的．你回忆的．你拥有过的．


那些．都已是记忆．


缺失并不可怕．


可怕的．是无法面对．






傻孩子．


你无法轻易忘记放弃．是因为你付出过．


付出了．他就会像柱子一样扎根在心．


不要刻意去逃避．刻意忘记．那只会让你更痛苦．


绕开这个柱子．寻找未来的幸福生活吧．


那里．有你的理想．






傻孩子．


开始新的习惯吧．


习惯．每天一个人生活．


习惯．一个人过生日．一个人行走．


习惯．走过熟悉的路．面对熟悉的景．


你逃不掉．逃不掉的．


那么．就勇敢面对．现实．


现实是．一切．画上了句点．






傻孩子．


勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．


这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．


这也是你．成长中的你．


这个你．正在逐渐死去．


新的你．即将重生．


寻你的路．你的未来．


你知道的．所有的浩劫．都是成长的祭奠．


做最好的自己．即使．一个人．






傻孩子．


好．好．尽情发泄吧．


剥开自己的心．用文字．用声音．用所有能发泄的方式．


泄完了．就要振作．


看吧．你失去的．其实微不足道．


还有那么多人关心着你．以不同的方式．


所以．你并不孤独．


正是这样的失去．让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．






傻孩子．


别哭．别再哭．


不值得．真的．不值得了．


把过去尘封吧．别委屈．别不甘心．别不接受．


开始新的旅程吧．去遇见新的风景．新的际遇．


做你该做的事吧．有很多事．等待着你完成呢．






傻孩子．


生活褪去了曾有的颜色．暂时宁静．


别沉沦在这片宁静里．那会毁掉你．


你要明白．虽然残忍．但这个决定．足够正确．


现在的生活．不是你想要的．


为了你的理想．你必须学会适时放弃．


给对方最好的关怀．就是．变的更好．更强大．更幸福．






现在我对你很好、很好、很好，你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜。。。。


当某天，你被伤害，想起我。你就会明白了。。。。。。。。。。。






好好的对待对方是最好的，以后的时间是很长的，既然缘分让你们相交，记得珍惜。。。


そのときは　かのじょう　よろしく


送给还在坚持的人们，，，，，，，


有时候放手了，，，，


可能你就轻松一些了。。。。


记得要让自己高兴。。。。。。

(转记自面子书)

那天见到你，才发现我还真的没办法放下. 难放下是因为真心的付出了.可是越是一个人，越显得难过，越是特地做了许多事，，尽量不让自己发呆，可是越夜，越显得凄凉。喜欢夜晚的宁静，可惜感觉就越来越惆怅。


今天得知朋友以为自己有问题，因为晚上的时候站在屋顶的露台哄孩子睡， 当她看到美丽的夜晚，她迷惘了，开始乱想：如果我跳下去，我会怎么样？虽然她不是要自杀，只是美丽的夜晚的却会让人迷惘.所以不难想象有忧郁症或精神病患者，连不会有自杀倾向的，会忽然间跳楼，或轻生去了。


面对着你，我自卑感更严重了。可是有时候还真地会乱想，还真怕会做错事。但我不会轻生的，因为我还没enjoy够呢！


因为一个下雨的夜晚，让BoBo把我吵醒了。在不知如何的情况下，惟有开戏来看。download后被摆在电脑很久的C+音乐，终于被我开了第一集来看。这期的主角 - 谢安琪。看到了歌迷分享了他们听歌后的感觉，他们能从跌下的地方再从新爬起来。令我想起两、三年前的歌 - 3/8 （三分八）说如果人生有80岁，她已走了三个十年。


明年就踏入我的第三个十年了，虽然我的每次决定都来必须深思熟虑了很久，而被逼做出的决定。我希望明年能够让自己任性一次的作决定，可以吗？

我们 - 草蜢

Not a big fan of Grasshopper, but this is my favourtie among their songs. The lyrics is touching too...



我們


填詞：林夕
作曲：王雙駿＠Double C Music Group
編曲/監製：王雙駿＠Double C Music Group

一句接一句　一對接一對
誰的流行曲　現在已經幾多歲
舊時某某拍著拖　脆弱到聽失戀心碎

一句中一個　我們是一夥
如果流行曲　就像日子的經過
就如你我愛甚麼　配樂也扣上那些歌

＊我們　有歌曲作伴
一起也一貫　從來都不說你們
就如我們　總拒絕沉悶
就是有不滿　總會找到心愛那一半＊

一個結婚了　一個上班了　也未算妖
唯一流行曲　活在腦海改不了
但求永遠發著燒　看望要跳舞有多少

REPEAT＊

(如今我長大了　如今我不寂寥
如今理想未了　如今我妄想草蜢跟我鬥妖)

REPEAT＊

我們　有歌曲作伴(如今我長大了)
一起也一貫　從來都不說你們(如今我不寂寥)
就如我們　似歌曲一般從來是我伴(如今理想未了)
總會找到心愛那一半(如今我夢中找到心愛那一半)

我是一只小小小小鸟

当初听到赵传的歌，不知道赵传是谁，反而超喜欢这首歌。十年前的我总在猜测未来是如何，十年后的我依然还在猜测未来是如何。


我是一只小小小小鸟，想要飞呀飞，却怎么飞不高。十年前的我想飞，却没有勇气。十年后的我，连想飞的感觉都没了。


听到丁当唱这首歌，觉得有点破坏了这首歌的情感。可能是年轻吧。比起十多年前赵传的版本，我还是喜欢赵传。任贤齐的版本也不错，少了点沧桑，多了点摇滚。丁当的少了沧桑，多了激情和高昂。

Our Father by Don Moen

	Don Moen - Our Father .mp3
	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Hear our prayer
We are Your children
And we've gathered here today, bless me
We're gathered here to pray

Hear our cry
Lord, we need Your mercy
And we need Your grace today, yes, we do
Hear us as we pray

Our Father, who art in Heaven
Hallowed be thy name
Our Father, hear us from Heaven
Forgive our sins we pray

Hear our song
As it rises to Heaven
May Your glory fill the earth
As the waters cover the seas

See our hearts
And remove anything
That is standing in the way
Of coming to You today

Our Father, who art in Heaven
Hallowed be Thy name
Our Father, hear us from Heaven
Forgive our sins we pray

And though we are few
We're surrounded by many
Who have crossed that river before
And this is the song we'll be singing forever

Holy is the Lord
Holy is the Lord
Holy is the Lord
Holy is the Lord

Holy is the Lord
Holy is the Lord
Holy is the Lord
Holy is the Lord

Hear our prayer
We are Your children
And we've gathered here today
We're gathered here to pray

Hear our cry
Oh Lord, we need Your mercy
And we need Your grace today, yes, we do
Hear us as we pray

Our Father, who art in Heaven
Hallowed be Thy name
Our Father, hear us from Heaven
Forgive our sins we pray

Our Father, who art in Heaven
Hallowed be thy name
Our Father, hear us from Heaven
Forgive our sins we pray
Forgive our sins we pray
Forgive our sins we pray
Oh yeah

*song heard from GBID in a performance

Hello Richie Jen!

Went up to Genting yesterday to watch Richie Jen's World Tour Live in Malaysia. This is the first time in my life I bought my own ticket to watch concerts.Pink and I were excited and we had been listening to his CDs for about 2 weeks to warm up... and UP to the mountain we drive...


We went in about 8pm and at about 8.10pm, which I had never expected so soon, one lady just announce through mic that the concert is now begin! I was like... What??! No video for opening? Just some dancers come out? Alright... at least some dance to do some warming up... but NO!!! After the dancers dance for 20 seconds, Richie is coming out from the stage hole... OMG, what a lousy opening. I saw his World Tour concert in 08 in HK, that was so great! Totally no mood from that time onwards...


As usual, he will just sing and sing, mostly his old famous songs. And slowly the mood has begun to rise up. The concert was till 10.30pm. It was so high at the end that I dun really want to leave :P

If I am Andy... If I am Woody...

Finally watch my favorite toy story series - Toy Story 3!


I had the opportunity to watch Toy Story when I was young. In the year of 1995, mum brought back a VHS entitled Toy Story. I'm not as exited as today, as I seldom watch English video tapes. But I had the privilege to understand the whole story because it is in Cantonese! I had so much fun watching it thought it feels funny to watch in Cantonese.


I still remembers there's one part where Buzz Lightyear just joins in, he proofs he can fly... and fall beautifully... Everyone clap their hands, but Woody being jealous and said 依的叫飞咩，依的叫做跌得好睇啧！Till now I still duno how it is said in English, but I believe soon I will get the DVD home :P


In 1999, I was exited as its going to have Toy Story 2. This time I'm able to watch in cinema, and I strongly recommend to my friends to watch. The story is more fun and exciting, cos only found out that Woody is special collection and he got other collectibles as well... and a new cow girl came along - Jessie.


After long waiting 11 years, finally Toy Story 3 came! I enjoy every part of it, but at the same time, it saddens me... It is hard when it is the time to choose between 2 just to bring only 1 to stay on the journey with you. But yet Andy had chosen Woody. If I were Andy, I will choose Woody as well. Not because I don't like other toys, it's just it is special. In TS 1, it had said Woody had been with Andy for few years, even though he had grown up, Woody still place a special part in his life, which at the end, he is sad to release Woody to continue his journey... After all, Woody is a classic! And he is faithful to his master... 


But Woody had made his choice to be with his friends. Not he don't love his Andy anymore, it's just that he feels he is more useful to a young girl as he used to be just as when he was with Andy. He can choose to be with his master to go college, but he will be alone at night. Greater things will come ahead when you know how to choose, and choose wisely...


By the way, I did cry when the girl wants to take Woody, but Andy refused. He still love his toys, but he generously give out. But for his precious, he never thought it will be in the box. But he saw the passion in the girl's eyes and he knew she will take good care of them.


I shall treat my toys nice, or else they might run away :P

Previous member in Toy Story.

New members in Toy Story 3

Pudu Jail no more...

Saw this clip posted in FB 2 days ago, and only realise it had been tore down and kept no more.

I don't have much memories about this building. I remember when I was young, I ask my mum what's that building, and she told me it is a jail, where bad people were punished and be kept in. I wanted to go in and visit, but I'm sure no outsiders are allow to enter. The outward appearance of the building is beautiful then, cos we can see the waterfall and green grass and trees. It doesn't look like a jail to me.

When I studied college, this place i can only remember is the road junction, where it is very jam every morning where people were travelling to work. Sooner or later, it has been closed down as it can't contain much prisoners and needed to shift. And later when they open door, I wasn't in a hurry to visit, cos I thought it will become a museum some day, where this will alert the public of how a prison can be rather than understands it through watching movies. But sad enough and I missed my chance. The government had decided to tore it down without giving a chance to public to voice their view.

Demolition has been made, and other parts of the building will be tear down soon. I heard that they will be building a commercial place. But doesn't it feels eerie when that place used to be jail? Hope those souls did rest their peace and no more UE3 the second.

没那么简单

自从上一次的事件发生后，我的却不敢再在网上写东西。原来那么的微不足道的东西，竟然可以被人拿来威胁。这一个部落格应该不会有太多人知道吧，为了我的一个“小粉丝”，我也只好努力的写写感想吧！

I heard this song in Penang, which later only knew that it's very popular in MY FM cos it has been repeated for quite some time. The song is nice, so I search through the net, and found the in MV. The song and the MV doesn't really have the same meaning. The MV is very touching but the lyrics touched my heart.

沒那麼簡單 就能找到 聊得來的伴
尤其是在 看過了那麼多的背叛
總是不安 只好強悍
誰謀殺了我的浪漫
沒那麼簡單 就能去愛 別的全不看
變得實際 也許好也許壞各一半
不愛孤單 一久也習慣
不用擔心誰  也不用被誰管
感覺快樂就忙東忙西
感覺累了就放空自己
別人說得話 隨便聽一聽 自己做決定
不想擁有太多情緒
一杯紅酒配電影
在週末晚上  關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡
相愛沒有那麼容易 每個人有他的脾氣
過了愛作夢的年紀 轟轟烈烈不如平靜
幸福沒有那麼容易 才會特別讓人著迷
什麼都不懂的年紀
曾經最掏心  所以最開心 曾經
沒那麼簡單  就能去愛  別的全不看
變得實際  也許好也許壞各一半
不愛孤單  一久也習慣
不用擔心誰  也不用被誰管
感覺快樂就忙東忙西
感覺累了就放空自己
別人說得話 隨便聽一聽 自己做決定
不想擁有太多情緒
一杯紅酒配電影
在週末晚上 關上了手機 舒服窩在沙發裡
相愛沒有那麼容易  每個人有他的脾氣
過了愛作夢的年紀  轟轟烈烈不如平靜
幸福沒那麼容易  才會特別讓人著迷
什麼都不懂的年紀  
曾經最掏心  所以最開心  曾經
相愛沒有那麼容易  每個人有他的脾氣
過了愛作夢的年紀  轟轟烈烈不如平靜
幸福沒那麼容易  才會特別讓人著迷
什麼都不懂的年紀  
曾經最掏心  所以最開心  曾經
想念最傷心  但卻最動心  的記憶

想一想，这首歌还是比较适合有点年纪了的人吧。呵呵！

We Are The Reason